commitment
I've had such aversion to commitment, even in the small nooks of life. I seem to hold a belief that commiting is going to exclude or reduce my chances of getting what it is I actually desire. This fear has creeped up into almost every avenue of my life; job, relationships, where I live. It makes me question my self-belief. I have to wonder why this is, and when I do the answer always seems to appear.
What else I've learned; it's not just me. This is absolutely a collective issues, one of course, that is rooted in fear. It empowered me at first, but drained me in the end. I unveiled the lack of trust I had within my own knowing, That I didn't know what I wanted, and at one point, that was true. It still may be true. But there is no shame in trying.
As disempowered one may feel, waves are still being created from your movements. I remind myself of this often, but committing to who I am, I open the possibility of that which exists beyond the mind. I can have dreams, hopes, aspirations, and goals, yet I must be willing to trust that which is in the beyond. This requires fierce trust.
As life continues moving, that which it does, it becomes more clear where I must go. That is human nature. As this experiences continues, it becomes much more evidate who one is. What one likes, and what makes sense. All we can do is follow that gentle urge. One step at a time. Knowing it is what aligns most in the moment.
Truth is, there is nothing that matters beyond what is truth. What is now. Commiting is a beautiful way of saying YES.
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