you are not alone

So much happens in this human experience. We try so hard to "control" our lives through the construct of time. Your whole life can turn around within a day, although we "plan" on that change happening over the course of years.

We want to suffer in silence, like the way that cats hide from their loved ones when they know they are ill. They are ashamed of their oily coats and weakness; hiding they spare their loved ones the pain of their shame, but they also isolate themselves from love and care. It's a lot like us.

We would rather hide alone than air out our dirty laundry. It is so interesting what can happen when we fall to our knees and accept our vulnerability. I have tried so hard to be "strong" all the time, to take it on the cheek and never let myself be weak. Though when I fell down, fully hit the ground, I found myself gifted with grace as I rose back up. Clarity come upon me.

As much as we want to run from and hide from our pain, we cannot. We have to learn our lessons and we have to realize the truths that seek us out. Although this experience does not look the same for all of us, it absolutely mirrors similar unchangeable aspects of reality.

Within recent months, I have felt so disempowered, so weak. I had to realize-that's okay-from that place, I learned insurmountable lessons that could only be learned from below. You will feel better soon, for everything is happening in perfect time.