endless awakening

the spiritual awakening....ahhh. it is yet so ever mysterious. truth be told, you will experience the moment of awakening endless times in your life and nothing ever amounts to its joy. the reason being: these are moments of it all making sense- all making sense meaning life. these divine moments are reassurance from the universe that the work you are doing is opening heart ways to the purity of experience and aligning you with your path of least resistance. i'll share: as i was driving home today, i had a moment of awakening. i have felt an overwhelming attraction to a man that i did not know- this feeling is one i am quite familiar with, it is born of the ego. there was no basis for this attraction yet it was so strong. as i have taken time with this idea, i recognized that my shadow of relational trauma/insecurity attached itself to this individual. meaning, that all my life, i have experienced blockages when it came to relationships with men, my partners. it was mostly that i felt the need to shift myself to best align with what their "dream girl" was, no matter how far away it took me from my own desires in life. it made me so angry when i would do this and yet i experienced no fulfillment from the relationship. plus, i hated myself because nothing i was doing stemmed from my own ideas. anyway, i realized that my attraction to this person was my shadow exposing itself in my waking reality. this was huge for me because that shadow was the basis of all my attractions in the past. as i have taken time to explore consciousness and oneness, i was able to understand that this demanding urge was an aspect of myself that needed love. i won't go deeper than i have. for me, this was reassurance that taking responsibility and taking my time will reward me with knowledge and strength that will empower to create a reality free of hardship and inauthenticity. i wish all the same and more for you on your journey. all my love xxx