acceptance, not admiration

hey friend, acceptance not admiration. this is a tough lesson i have had to face on my path. when i really reflected on my relations to other people, i recognized that i was looking to be admired by them. yes, this was very hard to look at, but i learned a very valuable lesson from it. all my life i learned that to be accepted you must be admired, you must have something special and unique to offer everyone around you and on top of that it must be something they benefit from. so, many of the things i did/valued went back to this idea. this bled into my family relationships, friends, partner. and it is sooo false!!! instead, i am making strides in seeking acceptance from others, that's all. i don't need you to love me, i don't need you to think i'm cool, fun, or desire me as a friend, i walk into every space with the mindset that all i desire is simple acceptance. as i continue to practice this, i feel so much less pressure in any interaction i may have. on my end, i accept that i will not always be accepted- and that's okay. i know in my heart that i value individuality, new things, and differences, so i will do my absolute best to allow that to vibrate in any space i am in. for so long i gave more value to other being's perspectives and opinions rather than my own. it was a constant rat race to find a place where i felt like i was pleasing them and that they thought i was great etc. etc. etc. in the true reality, we all have the quality of being admirable. and that's because no one else experiences life exactly as we do. in this lesson, remember that we are all at different places in our journeys, acceptance is the basis for all love. i understand it as being the fertile soil for all beautiful things. accept yourself fully and you will find acceptance anywhere. lower your expectations, and walk with your heart first. acceptance.

all love and even more.