the planning poison
this is an idea i am really working through in my life- acceptance that planning withholds me. it has always been deemed a helpful, necessary tool in a creating a life of wealth. well, that may be true, but not in my experience.
whenever i make "plans" they linger over my head. i can't stop thinking about them! i relate it to as a little kid getting so excited and holding on so tightly to the idea: christmas vacation a birthday. This is great fun, but i realized how much of my life was being neglected and wasted. i wasn't seeing the fullness of opportunity, because i was too focused on a singular idea. does this make sense?
I have been experiencing this on all levels of consciousness, and it feels soooo good to free myself from the idea of needing to have plans. life is not a process of planning. ideas are different than plans. I am going to share a quote from Robert Frost that goes well with this topic "I have never started a poem yet whose end I know. writing a poem is discovering." this struck me because i am coming to peace with the fact that i carried around the weight of always needing to know the ending, what's next, having "plans" to create safety in my being. robotic in a way.
i have found a renewed sense of response-ability by eliminating what has been a safety net for me. planning is great, but understand that when done with attachment, it will take away the magic of the moments. when you channel your energy in any ideas, you are creating an attachment with them. i couldn't do this anymore, i was suffocating myself. letting myself live is the step i took. trusting everything will fall into place. accepting that my mind liked the idea of plans, but they are not necessary for my enjoyment in life.
the greatest pioneers never followed a map, they just went. that is the leap of faith. the purity of movement into the waves of life and allowing yourself to surrender to their ideas or "plans" you could say. haha. create space.
ideas are the key. give them freedom. let the seeds grow as they may. bear witness to the beauty.
whenever you are in your life, allow yourself to practice having no plan, eliminating the waiting game. whether this being driving home from work and focusing on having no attachment to any particular act when you get home. or having a day off and prioritizing a clear mind in the morning, noticing your draw to set a schedule for yourself, yet choosing to enjoy the right now.
little moments like this set big swings into action.
sending love and freedom xxx