fear of truth

this is a hard pill to swallow. moving through life, i have really transmuted the idea of fear into raw acceptance of the truth that i have no control over what comes at me in life. this has been absolutely monumental in fully experiencing life. i am not motivated by fear and fear no longer controls my life.

still, fear comes to me and when it does it packs a punch. i am aware enough to sit with the fear, and really understand its root. (this helps so much, because once you recognize you are greater than your fears, you are gifted with the wisdom to understand them.)

what it comes back to is that i am in fear of the truth. it's almost like an unraveling. for so long, i have functioned off of stable ideas and assigned weight to different aspects of my life. as i engage more with the truth of life, i am forced to let these go. they are anchors that no longer serve me.

what i realize, is that many of us fear the truth. we don't fear the thing, or the particular outcome, or the power of an individual person. there is something greater nudging at us and many times it gets lost in translation.

we accept the surface level, we get attached to ideas. as i have surrendered, i realize my own ideas have been stopping me, my own expectations act as limitations. we truly have nothing to fear but the fear.

fear is a friend. a raw friend who tells you the whole truth with no regard of how it makes you feel, and that's because they know there is something even greater within, beyond emotional feeling.

this realization is expanding with relations to the universe, for i recognize how much i do not know, and how much i have to trust and release. things will not always go the way my brain explained. and that is okay.

do not hide from your fear. open up to it instead. listen to it.

jumping head first xoxo sm